This Happens Sometimes

It's OK. No It's Not. Yes, It Is. No. It's Not. (Image by By Tanya Little Flickr: 9 of 365 ~ Frustration [CC BY-SA 2.0 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/2.0)], via Wikimedia

It’s OK. No It’s Not. Yes, It Is. No. It’s Not. (Image by By Tanya Little Flickr: 9 of 365 ~ Frustration [CC BY-SA 2.0 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/2.0)%5D, via Wikimedia Commons)

As I’ve been [re]working on my short stories the past year, there was one I was really trying hard to make workable. Publishable. But…in the end…I just couldn’t make work. It was titled “A Taste of Eden,” and it was kinda nasty. In a part or two, actually, downright disgusting. But the rest of the somewhat disjointed story was kinda cool—had some time-shifting Titanic imagery in there…scary, horror scenes inside an abandoned building during a gnarly thunderstorm…self-mutilation…and a perverted bovine-headed-and-hoofed demon—I really wanted it to work…but…I just couldn’t. And I really didn’t like the “perverted” part. Seriously—I’d written that? Grossed me out. Ick.

(…daisies and kitties…daisies and kitties….)

Maybe in another 20 years.

So I sent it to the Not Used Folder.

I never totally trash/delete anything…no matter how bad.

Then there was another story—a partial of maybe 1,000 words—that I’d expanded into 5,000 words. But can’t publish it because of certain reasons…and having a lawyer review it…well, it’s not worth the cost…but beyond that, I have to be considerate for the people “involved.” You see, I’d written about events from real life…changed them up a little…but they would still be obvious to those these events had happened to.  And they might not take too kindly to me writing about them.

So, into the Not Used Folder that went. Hopefully, after we’re all dead, someone will find it and publish it. It’s a really powerful story. It keeps bringing me to tears every time I read the damned thing.

Wasted time. One could say I’ve wasted time on these efforts…but one could also say, no time and effort is ever, really wasted. It all counts toward growth…improved writing. And I believe this. I’ve written 10 100K novel manuscripts…each has taken 2-3 years of my life. Some longer. I’ve only published half of them. As to short stories, I still haven’t counted them all up, but I’m coming up on about 52 published ones, if I make it through to November 27th, when I published my first on this blog, “Tail Gunner.” Right now I have stories scheduled for release through October 28th. And I still have a couple left.

And then there was my little misfire yesterday.

Oh, for cryin’ out loud.

I’d been so damned careful for weeks on where I was placing that cursor of mine…then—after updating a bunch of my short story blog posts with the cleaner hyperlink to my Short Stories page—it happened: “premature publishing.”

I spazzed out and mistakenly hit Publish instead of Save Draft. Classic rookie mistake.

(Yeah, there’s a double entendre in all this. And, by the way, I’m not writing this post in response to yesterday’s mishap—I’d actually started writing it two days ago.)

So, I sent out another “post” announcing my error, then promptly went looking for all copies on social media and deleting them (though the e-mailed versions still exist…). I think I was successful. But, yeah, it took some of the wind out of my sails, dammit….

I’ve had all this “weird energy” lately…different issues I’m not going to get into…but a “minor maelstrom of transitional energy,” I’m calling it. Aggravating old injuries, new issues kicking my ass, “interpersonal issues,” tons of work on short stories not going anywhere. We all go through these periods of time. And then there’s the weather…still acting like it’s winter in May. This is Colorado, not….

But you know…it’s all okay…it is.

This happens sometimes.

Short Story Links

Links to all my posted short stories are here.

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About fpdorchak

Paranormal fiction author.
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6 Responses to This Happens Sometimes

  1. Wendy Brydge says:

    Frank, I can not tell you how many times I’ve come THISCLOSE to hitting the publish button instead of the save button on WordPress too. It is in THE worst possible place. There have been too many *click* … “oh, crap, NO! Don’t let off the button! Don’t let off it! Drag the cursor away before you let go… please, God, please…” *squints eyes, hesitantly releases button, exhales, relaxes* It’s absolutely ridiculous. WordPress really needs to address the location of that publish button, because I know of other WP users too who go through the same minor heart attacks on a regular basis. Geez, guys, just MOVE THE DAMN BUTTON!!!

    • fpdorchak says:

      Yup. It really needs an “Are you sure” selection. And move it away from the scroll bar. AND that WP acts really weird many times…delayed processing…funky processing…NOT SAVING when you’ve hit Save and it looks like it’s actually saving, etc. Lotsa bugs. It seems to be getting better, but geez….

      But, in the midst of all those updates I’d been doing, you get into a pattern…and I was trying to be so good about paying attention…I think its delayed processing from all my back-and-forth just caught up with me….

      So…you’ll be seeing that cover info again…hopefully with the actual story attached…in the near future….

      • Wendy Brydge says:

        Agreed! An “are you sure” message would be a great update to WP’s services.

        When it comes time for updating, I wish that sites like WordPress would spend less time on style and design and more time addressing form, functionality and bugs. I care less about how WP itself looks, and more about how well it’s going to work for me.

        And I hear you about getting into a pattern. I learned the hard way a long time ago that you shouldn’t do the bulk of your writing IN WordPress because sometimes you hit save and it just wipes out your entire blog post and you have to start all over again. But, it hasn’t happened in a long while and so here I am, still writing IN the program. *sighs* I’m sure it’s only a matter of time before my luck runs out and I’m left kicking myself. Again. :-/

        • fpdorchak says:

          I had been updating already scheduled posts with an update to my short story links. It was pure copy-and-paste.

          But…it’s over! Moving on! :-] Thanks for the read and comments, Wendy! Hope WP does some functional updates.

          Where’s that comment selection of theirs….

  2. fpdorchak says:

    …annnnnd I just knocked a full glass of milk across the table and onto the carpet.

    Yeaaah…there still be “weird energy” afoot….

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